Saturday, September 26, 2009
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8:05 PM
Hmmm... not much posting over at blogger i realize..
reason ? I have been blogging over at my wordpress blog. LOL
yes.. i have a wordpress.... hurhur.. and a tumblr.... and a LJ..
amazing right ? HAHA
this is called exploring different types of websites.
the only thing i never register is twitter
i just don't like how it works
abit too confusing to me to use
I might blog in wordpress in the further
get ready for a new link
but i wont forsake this blog
too much memories in here since 2004
so i might come back here anytime to blog
for now everything is at wordpress i guess
Sunday, September 6, 2009
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10:25 AM
Smile, I smile whenever I stand before you
I try to smile, like a person
Even if my heart is bruised and aching
I smile, I smile, I smile
Like the dust that remains after a long period of time
Smile, after smiling for so long it becomes a habit
Hopefully a day will come where I can smile without trying and crying only if I try
Have you ever looked into my eyes?
The sadness in my eyes because I was never able to tell you I love you
I smile so my eyes look cold
Because I fear I might cry, that you'll see the tears in my eyes
Smile, I want to see you smiling
I see you to make you smile, that's what I live for
I act foolish and make mistakes on purpose
Have you ever looked into my eyes?
The sadness in my eyes because I was never able to tell you I love you
I smile so my eyes look cold
Because I can't lengthen your happiness by shortening my own
This is all I can do
My place is opposite you, not next to you
Upon your shoulder instead of in your arms
A place that seems to be near but isn't
No matter how I tremble and how my throat wants to scream out
This is how it should always be
I swallow it up so I can gaze at you
Until my eyes become hazy with tears
I try to smile, like a person
Even if my heart is bruised and aching
I smile, I smile, I smile
Like the dust that remains after a long period of time
Smile, after smiling for so long it becomes a habit
Hopefully a day will come where I can smile without trying and crying only if I try
Have you ever looked into my eyes?
The sadness in my eyes because I was never able to tell you I love you
I smile so my eyes look cold
Because I fear I might cry, that you'll see the tears in my eyes
Smile, I want to see you smiling
I see you to make you smile, that's what I live for
I act foolish and make mistakes on purpose
Have you ever looked into my eyes?
The sadness in my eyes because I was never able to tell you I love you
I smile so my eyes look cold
Because I can't lengthen your happiness by shortening my own
This is all I can do
My place is opposite you, not next to you
Upon your shoulder instead of in your arms
A place that seems to be near but isn't
No matter how I tremble and how my throat wants to scream out
This is how it should always be
I swallow it up so I can gaze at you
Until my eyes become hazy with tears
Saturday, August 29, 2009
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11:11 PM
HOW IS IT POSSIBLE FOR SOMEONE TO BE SO SEXY
WHILE JUST SHOWING A SMIRK AND SIMPLE DANCE MOVES
onlyy her..... damnnnnnn.... hot like fire
Monday, August 24, 2009
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6:37 PM
I REALLY FEEL LIKE CRYING !!!! T___T
WHY IS PROCESSING SO FUCKING HARD !!!
AND IS NOT HELPING THAT MY LECTURER JUST DUMP THE WORK
TO US AND EXPECT US TO SOLVE IT ON OUR OWN AND HAND IT TO HIM !!
T___________T
i spend like...... 284628346364 HOURS trying to figure out
how to make the mini game but FAILED !!! KAO !
fuck.. i think i got no talent for processing.... zzz
everyone is too busy for me to ask for help
i think i just heck it man... if i fail this... i donno what to say...
seriously... why issit so hard for me to learn the CODE !?!!!!
anyone who is damn good in processing please contact me.. sighhh
FUCK ITTTTTTTTTT !! FUCK YOU ANDREAS TOO !!
Sunday, August 23, 2009
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10:46 AM
Even if my heart aches and burn so much that my mouth goes dry
it's only you
why does it turns out this way
this mask i am wearing.. how long more ??
how long do i have to act this way ?
i got no answers for my questions
how i wish i can be a different person someday
day by day i feel my confident dropping
even i don't really understand myself and what i want..
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
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5:31 AM
Overdue post again
seems like i been doing alot of overdue post lately
I am just lazy to open blogger snd start typing away
July 29 (DRAMA NIGHT)
went clubbing on wed night
next monday school is restarting
and might not have the time to go clubbing often
i swear being a girl has it advantage ~ HAHA
ladies night for e.g was awesome without paying for entrance fee 8D
went to vivo to eat and meet up with my schoolmates for dinner
than we waited for jan and her sister to join us after work
cab down to clark quay since it was not too far
Went straight to REBEL which was the club we went
took a peek at ZICAR since it was link through and nabei
they got a cage podium there nor.. and inside got an angmo couple zi-highing inside
the night was still young and head to 7-11 to warm up with some drinks
the blackberry drink i bought taste like some shit medicine
pictures ~
Before i knew it ~ the drama started
1. Drinking chivas and alone taking care of the table
2. Went to the dancefloor and get high
3. THIS MOTHERFUCKER BLACK GUY KEPT FOLLOWING US
4. Jan and her sister got dead drunk
5. GOT VIOLATED and SCOOP by jan
6. Want to kill mich as time is ticking by
7. Went out to breath fresh air and sit down
8. Fell asleep on the floor while my head hurts like fuck
9. Trying to fight the pain away but failed
10. Feel like vomiting and I REALLY DID VOMIT
( i was sober all along somemore.. kaoz)
11. Drag mich away from punching random guy to cab and home
ya.... so drama.. to be honest i didnt enjoy myself tht night
i wasnt even high and taking care of drunk people is tiring LOL
the best thing was my mother dun even know about it
how awesome was it ? i bath really fast in fear that i will get caught
for coming home so late on a weekday and somemore clubbing
HAHAHA !! gosh... i really am rebelling man
but overall it was still a fun night with good music
Thursday, July 23, 2009
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11:47 AM
I almost forgot i have a blog =_= tskk.. i need to stop neglecting this small space
where i pour out all my thoughts actually i wanted to blog but
it seems like all my post seems so emo i didn't want to post it here
hence the lack of updates i think i shall just post all the OVERDUE PICTURES
that i did took for like about 4 weeks back
the day where
i met up with amanda n verse for dinner after verse interview
at her company both of us is craving for lasagna HAHA !!
i really am so in love with western food alot so we head to pizza hut
tsk.. i miss eating pizza already *drools*
i should not post at 5am in the morning =_=
looking at these pictures makes me feel hungry
My very 1st time as a SAIKANG !! OH MY GOD
CAN U BELIEVE IT ? I DOWNGRADE FROM A
PHOTOG TO BE A SAIKANG !!?!!!!! LOLOL
but okie lah.. i self volunteer one so yah.....
end up i was the only saikang of the day D:
lols cheat ma feeling man.. but i regret nt bringing my cam
to the shoot cos that place we went to was oh so deserted but yet
damn nice to take photos loh i cope my brother digi cam to took pic
tsk.. i wish i have car than i dun mind travelling to these kind
of places to take pictures loh seriously... i need to improve more =(
let the pictures do the talking now
i got too bored there being alone so i camwhore also.. HAHAAH !!!!!
got 1 moment where i was left alone standing at the entrence and
i turn around i saw no one at all i chua sai sia !! i thot where the hell
the rest go turn out they went deeper inside which is hidden from my view =__=
shoot till the sky turns to dark
and the place which i found was awesome in the day
become damn scary and creepy to me D:
all the while i felt like someone is looking at me
there is this uneasy feeling creeping onto me
somehow i felt i wasnt the only one standing there alone gurding the bags D:
and on our way home in the train
verse n kaoru told me that they actually saw and felt there is "ghosts" there
WALAO EH ! I DAMN FREAK OUT WHEN I HEARD THAT LOH
nabei sia !! lols so what i felt there was actually something lahhh..
all along i thot i think too much.. walao eh... IS SO CREEPY CAN !! T_T
but overall is not a bad day cos the photos turn out to be damn awesome 8D
it seems like all my post seems so emo i didn't want to post it here
hence the lack of updates i think i shall just post all the OVERDUE PICTURES
that i did took for like about 4 weeks back
the day where
i met up with amanda n verse for dinner after verse interview
at her company both of us is craving for lasagna HAHA !!
i really am so in love with western food alot so we head to pizza hut
tsk.. i miss eating pizza already *drools*
i should not post at 5am in the morning =_=
looking at these pictures makes me feel hungry
My very 1st time as a SAIKANG !! OH MY GOD
CAN U BELIEVE IT ? I DOWNGRADE FROM A
PHOTOG TO BE A SAIKANG !!?!!!!! LOLOL
but okie lah.. i self volunteer one so yah.....
end up i was the only saikang of the day D:
lols cheat ma feeling man.. but i regret nt bringing my cam
to the shoot cos that place we went to was oh so deserted but yet
damn nice to take photos loh i cope my brother digi cam to took pic
tsk.. i wish i have car than i dun mind travelling to these kind
of places to take pictures loh seriously... i need to improve more =(
let the pictures do the talking now
i got too bored there being alone so i camwhore also.. HAHAAH !!!!!
got 1 moment where i was left alone standing at the entrence and
i turn around i saw no one at all i chua sai sia !! i thot where the hell
the rest go turn out they went deeper inside which is hidden from my view =__=
shoot till the sky turns to dark
and the place which i found was awesome in the day
become damn scary and creepy to me D:
all the while i felt like someone is looking at me
there is this uneasy feeling creeping onto me
somehow i felt i wasnt the only one standing there alone gurding the bags D:
and on our way home in the train
verse n kaoru told me that they actually saw and felt there is "ghosts" there
WALAO EH ! I DAMN FREAK OUT WHEN I HEARD THAT LOH
nabei sia !! lols so what i felt there was actually something lahhh..
all along i thot i think too much.. walao eh... IS SO CREEPY CAN !! T_T
but overall is not a bad day cos the photos turn out to be damn awesome 8D
THE SPOIL BRAT
Name:MaOo / Shouji
Age:19
Sex: Androgynous
Is A Slacker
A Very Lazy Person
Daydreamer
Irritanting Person
Trying To Be A Good Singer
A Pervert/Hentai
An Idiot
Have A Spilt Personality
Love Sweets Stuff
- LOVES -
My Family & All My Friends
Photography/Art/Design/
Daydream/Shopping/Staring/
Painting/Spraying/Eating/
Sleep/Music/Melody/JROCK/Fashion
Etc, Etc, Etc
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- MY WISHLIST -
Get all JROCK/VISUAL KEL stuff !
SLIM DOWN !!!!
GO Japan/Hong Kong/Taiwan/Korean
Travel All Around The World
GAIN FREEDOM FROM PARENTS !
Learn Guitar(BASS)/Piano/Drums/Violin
Get a Bass & Eletrical Guitar
Be a Good Successful Designer & Photographer
Have My Own Room
Professional Camara With PRO Lens
Have lots of MONEY !!!
Be A RICH ASS In Future !!!
Have A Car Licence
Have Many Many New Clothes !!
OWN DOLLFIES !!
For Verse Han To Love Eeyor
I HAVE TOO MANY to list out
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>MaOo & Kino<
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