This isolation that I am, this confusion, constant. The voice at my back kept on.

Saturday, September 26, 2009 , 8:05 PM

Hmmm... not much posting over at blogger i realize..

reason ? I have been blogging over at my wordpress blog. LOL

yes.. i have a wordpress.... hurhur.. and a tumblr.... and a LJ..

amazing right ? HAHA

this is called exploring different types of websites.

the only thing i never register is twitter

i just don't like how it works

abit too confusing to me to use

I might blog in wordpress in the further

get ready for a new link

but i wont forsake this blog

too much memories in here since 2004

so i might come back here anytime to blog

for now everything is at wordpress i guess

Sunday, September 6, 2009 , 10:25 AM

Smile, I smile whenever I stand before you
I try to smile, like a person
Even if my heart is bruised and aching
I smile, I smile, I smile
Like the dust that remains after a long period of time
Smile, after smiling for so long it becomes a habit
Hopefully a day will come where I can smile without trying and crying only if I try

Have you ever looked into my eyes?
The sadness in my eyes because I was never able to tell you I love you
I smile so my eyes look cold

Because I fear I might cry, that you'll see the tears in my eyes
Smile, I want to see you smiling
I see you to make you smile, that's what I live for
I act foolish and make mistakes on purpose

Have you ever looked into my eyes?
The sadness in my eyes because I was never able to tell you I love you
I smile so my eyes look cold

Because I can't lengthen your happiness by shortening my own
This is all I can do
My place is opposite you, not next to you
Upon your shoulder instead of in your arms
A place that seems to be near but isn't
No matter how I tremble and how my throat wants to scream out
This is how it should always be
I swallow it up so I can gaze at you
Until my eyes become hazy with tears